My brother is in me
But he can't depend on me
You think, give more love a try
Maybe you could find
A better friend
Than any other


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I've stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


well ive been taged by so i better this before she whacks me haha...

8 Random facts about me:

1) Some...or most of my mates have never seen my natural hair colour

2) I was told at the age of around 8 or something that when i was older i wud need a mouth brace (those things that go round ur head :S) when i was a teen....ive never had to have one and not even had to have braces, my teeth have always been perffectly healthy

3) i love buffy the vamp slayer and watching sailor moon anime

4) ive been to new zealand, greece, italy and france....

5) i have a secret(or not so) fetish for sexy lingerie, especially corset styles....and not even to impress the men, i just like wearing it

6) i used to play on a netball team and prefered playing WA position

7) i still sleep with teddy bears...and i dont care what ppl think

8) i still have one great grandparent still alive, she is about 96 or so


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My brother is in me
But he can't depend on me
You think, give more love a try
Maybe you could find
A better friend
Than any other


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And would I've stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life


Ok, so just, wanted to get some lyrics that mean a lot to me right now out into this, dont ask why, just call it expressing myself.

Anyway, sooo, ive been working as supervisor almost a week, eek, I think Im getting a bit more confident in "delegating" tasks (the nice way of saying "telling ppl what to do!" looool)

Mind you I was a bit slow today, but I think that had a lot to do with feeling a bit crappy emotionaly...its been one month u see, since that happened...just craving it a bit and missing it.

Anyway, I WAS gonna post some new works of mine on here...but im too tired to do it now, so Ill see how I feel.

I enrolled on a photography course...am gonna be doing it once a week for one day only.....its a HNC in photography EEK!! Im excited about it and nervous too.....

anyway am gonna go, im tired.

night night

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can only make me stronger



My Dearest Friends
- My Photography Buddy
- friends of friends
- my tiny friend
- The Crazy One
- Graphics Girl
- Ex-Photography Buddy (but buddies nonetheless)
- Volunteer buddy
- fairly new on devart...one of my very good friends...and quite a laugh..check her out!!

My Other Watchers

Im back and updating my journal. Ive been busy settling into the changes in my life.

As you know, I left 6th form doing A levels to become a supervisor (not forgetting I am going to enrol on a part time photography course)...and a lot of people thought i was; stupid, crazy, an idiot and so many other things - you know what, I am so glad I listened to my intuition this time - because, even though its only been a few days I have that feeling that it was the right choice. Yes, A levels are important and people ask for them - but look at the bigger picture here - there is a lot of people who dont do A levels or drop out to do a job - I know a few myself - and although it wasnt easy, they still got a job - but really, even with A levels, its still hard to get a job....anyway, thats not what I wanted to write about.

I did read an article in my magazine 'sychologies' (i would recommend you read it, its only sold in the UK thou, maybe in other countries, I dont know...) about intuition "that nagging feeling" you get about something....even if logically something doesnt make sense - ie, leaving A levels - but that nagging feeling that knows its the right thing - thats how i felt, i tried to wait and think about it more, but I knew it was what I wanted to do.

So, other things....Im dealing with "things" a little better with what happened a month ago tomorrow (yes I still count...) and it still hurts a little, there is no doubt about that, Im trying my best to stay strong and i think Im doing an alright job, but I still feel I have a long way to go....I hope this doesnt last too long for me, I dont want to feel like this for 8 months, you know.

Well Ive gotta go to the college to enrol today and return some books to the 6th form...so gonna be busy...and if the weather stays nice, i might do some photography!

Anyway, i think im gonna do some features.....












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- My Photography Buddy
- friends of friends
- my tiny friend
- The Crazy One
- Graphics Girl
- Ex-Photography Buddy (but buddies nonetheless)
- Volunteer buddy
- fairly new on devart...one of my very good friends...and quite a laugh..check her out!!

My Other Watchers

Okies, after my rant...Am kinda happy, kinda scared.

I AM LEAVING 6TH FORM!! Its not that I absolutly despise the place, and yes, as everyone keeps telling me, its a big risk and maybe I should just stick it out. But Ive relised one thing about me, Im restless - or impatient - however you want to see it - Im not leaving thou to JUST get a full time job as a supervisor - After a proper talk with my dad yesterday, I relised I really am not interested in any other career as much as photography - even ICT is too big an umbrella for me, and I dont wanna end up doing something really dull and boring in that - and there is nothing else that really takes my fancy.

SOOOO.... I decided to go looking back to the college I left almost two years ago - Barking College, I already know how good the facilities are there - apparantly the best in the area, so that cant be bad - I looked it up and found a part time course - BTEC National Award in photography - which I thought is a good starting point, I rung up and finally got through to someone who could give me all the information I need - It concerntrates on landscape photography as well as portraiture (which means I can delve into both and work on both, because I love both) and it just so happens the tutor of that course is the same guy who taught me photography when I last went there. I have to go and sign up next wednesday and speak to him, I dont think it should be too much a problem as he already knows me.

Im happy that I can finally concerntrate on what I want, but I can also be earning some decent money - I feel this way I have more independence to go my own way.

On other points, I think I need to build up my confidence again, I feel at an all time low in that area, especially because of recent events - Ive finally got to stand on my own two feet and stay standing so to speak.

In other news, I won a photoshoot with a company called coverlook - its in London, and its worth £500 - Im taking with me which is gonna be awesome!! They do our hair and make-up proffessionally and take around 30 shots...EEK i cant wait, its gonna be fun, and I might learn a thing or two as well!

Anyway Signing off, ive wrote too much already to bore you. I am really nervous about what Im doing, Im worried that there is a possibility I could regret it and that Im being too rash, but on the other hand, I will be happier doing what I want to do as well. A levels are important, but Im sure it isnt everything....happiness is always more important at the end of the day.

anyway ill shut up now! SEE YA!

My Dearest Friends
- My Photography Buddy
- friends of friends
- my tiny friend
- The Crazy One
- Graphics Girl
- Ex-Photography Buddy (but buddies nonetheless)
- Volunteer buddy
- fairly new on devart...one of my very good friends...and quite a laugh..check her out!!

My Other Watchers